Haven On Earth

I was reading in a book last night that our minds can logically know that we have to go through something or undergo a hard experience, but on a cellular level-our bodies will respond accordingly to it being serious. “Perceptions of the instinctual level nervous system carries more weight” it said. How interesting! Have you thought about this for yourself? I have been thinking about all the trauma I have gone through in a little over 30 years. The stuff we are told to ignore and just suck it up and let it go and not think about and no one but me and the Good Lord knows.

I remember about 8 years ago, I had to be put asleep for a medical test. I told the doctor I really did not like anesthesia (prior wisdom teeth removal) and to tell me when I would be getting the medicine. They were talking to me and next I knew I woke up in a dark room –screaming– then I started crying. I felt dead. They brought in my boyfriend at the time, he hugged me and got me into the car. I cried the whole way home. You see, my brain LOGICALLY knew I needed that test, ya? But my body hated every single second of being detached from its consciousness. I felt like my “soul” detached from my body and I didn’t even know if I was “alive” or “dreaming” or what was true reality was for about 24 hours.

Paranoid is an understatement.

But what is comical — I wanted to be an anesthesiologist.

ha..ha ha haaa ha

ANESTHESIA : “Latin, from Greek anaisthēsia “want of feeling or perception, lack of sensation (to pleasure or pain),” abstract noun from an- “without” (see an- (1)) + aisthēsis “feeling” (from PIE root *au- “to perceive”).”

PHARMECUTICAL :

“The Greek word pharmakeia appears in Galatians 5:20 and Revelation 18:23. Terms from the same root word appear in Revelation 9:21, Revelation 21:8, and Revelation 22:15. These are typically translated into English as “sorcery,” “witchcraft,” or “sorcerer.” Ancient Greek uses of pharmakeia closely mirror the generic modern English word drugs ; the same Greek root word produced English terms such as pharmacy and pharmacist.”